Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Soo Ugly.

Today I had one of those pitiful "I'm so ugly" days. I felt like I was 240ish pounds again and was upset that some of the size 12 jeans (I started at a 22, wow, so insane to be upset right?) I picked out at Goodwill didn't fit.

Then I put on my big girl panties and dealt with it. Yeah my face felt puffy, my hair was flat, I have tons of acne scars, some jeans don't fit, I'm not tan, not blonde...

WHO CARES?

That stuff doesn't define me! I've lost a ton of weight..I'm finally HEALTHY! I can walk up 18 flights of stairs when at the beginning I would walk up one flight and want to die.

I'm on a mission to keep on my journey and not let those devil whispers enter my mind. It's hard if you compare yourself to others, but it's all about kicking the negativity to the curb and knowing that I am beautiful, I have people that love me, and that's that!!

SCREW YOU NEGATIVE SELF IMAGE!

Time to be my gypsy badass alter ego!

9 comments:

Sarah said...

I didn't realize that you've lost so much weight. You should be so proud! And you look fantastic! I'm glad you feel great and healthy too.

Czesia said...

Thank you Sarah! I guess we all have our days! I am trying to focus on the positive :)

Amanda said...

Personally, I like dark hair better than blond. :D

We all have those days, when the mirror shows us so much bigger than we are, where all we can see is imperfection. Work past it! You can do it! You've made so much progress. Hold on to the knowledge that you look so much more like yourself again. :)

Czesia said...

Thanks Amanda :)

The Mrs @ Success Along the Weigh said...

I'm sorry I didn't see this sooner. I hope that has passed like a bad clam but if it hasn't, know that you ARE gorgeous and have come so far. That feeling is/was temporary. Never forget to revel in your aura o' awesome!

Fluffynurse said...

Definitely badass. All the way girlie.

Mollie said...

good for you girl! I know it's hard to stay positive all the time, but you so should! you look great!

and brunettes are way better anyway!!

Frickin' Fabulous at 40 said...

You do have gorgeous eyes (you said they're your favorite attribute, right?) and that gypsy number is hot! I for sure can't show my husband that picture or I'll be serving dinner in metal tableware while he yells :Wench, fetch me some more ale!"

Czesia said...

haha you make me laugh!!!!