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Friday, April 6, 2012
A Champion
Have you ever tried to blog without thinking about what you are writing? Just writing from the heart? Here's my attempt...
I've had a pretty much crap day today. A lot of stress has felt pretty bottled up in me. Marc went to two seperate tours/interviews at that place (discussed in previous post, I won't be posting the name). He thought he was taken off of a no hire list since he worked there when he was 12 years ago. He was called today and told he was actually still on the no hire list (life long no hire).
It was really hard for him to hear. His hopes were obviously up after two visits to said place. He hurt his hand out of frustration and I just wanted to melt into a pool of liquid sadness. I hate that he feels when stuff like this happens to him, it seems that no matter how far he's come in life, past issues creeep up and haunt him.
It kills me.
A few other problems are going on right now in my life that I haven't really been talking about. I feel like a replaceable person to a lot of people in my life and it makes me really upset. I'm trying to get through it and just to let it pass. I know that I am a good friend, but I think people forget that.
I called my mom and cried cried cried. She told me that my whole life I've been a champion, and have worked through insurmountable odds. She read the definition to me " One that is clearly superior or has the attributes of a winner, An ardent defender or supporter of a cause or
another person, One who fights; a warrior."
It did make me feel better...so does this song.
I've had it on repeat. Something about it is helping me just deal.
You ever have those days where yeah, things are going wrong, but there seems to be something more underneath all that worry and sadness? That's today.
Seems like "today" could be considered my everyday.
My brain feels cloudy, wish I could go running at midnight. Can't shake this cloud today. Sorry.
I've had a pretty much crap day today. A lot of stress has felt pretty bottled up in me. Marc went to two seperate tours/interviews at that place (discussed in previous post, I won't be posting the name). He thought he was taken off of a no hire list since he worked there when he was 12 years ago. He was called today and told he was actually still on the no hire list (life long no hire).
It was really hard for him to hear. His hopes were obviously up after two visits to said place. He hurt his hand out of frustration and I just wanted to melt into a pool of liquid sadness. I hate that he feels when stuff like this happens to him, it seems that no matter how far he's come in life, past issues creeep up and haunt him.
It kills me.
A few other problems are going on right now in my life that I haven't really been talking about. I feel like a replaceable person to a lot of people in my life and it makes me really upset. I'm trying to get through it and just to let it pass. I know that I am a good friend, but I think people forget that.
I called my mom and cried cried cried. She told me that my whole life I've been a champion, and have worked through insurmountable odds. She read the definition to me " One that is clearly superior or has the attributes of a winner, An ardent defender or supporter of a cause or
another person, One who fights; a warrior."
It did make me feel better...so does this song.
I've had it on repeat. Something about it is helping me just deal.
You ever have those days where yeah, things are going wrong, but there seems to be something more underneath all that worry and sadness? That's today.
Seems like "today" could be considered my everyday.
My brain feels cloudy, wish I could go running at midnight. Can't shake this cloud today. Sorry.
Thursday, April 5, 2012
My Last Day
Today is my last day at work, I'm excited, but scared too! I guess we all have to take risks now and again but faith will always bring us through. When we are good to others, others will in turn be good to us! I'm closing a great chapter in my life, yes, but I'm turning the page to a healthier, happier me. I'm going to plant this Hydrangea in the backyard and whenever I look at it, I will think of all the good times I've had here! I actually wouldn't be in college right now if it weren't for the opportunities I had here at work. They gave me a leg up and a chance to find my potential...now I have to stop or I'm going to cry again!!!!
I had a photo shoot with Beanka before work today! True story: My bro-in-law thought Beanka was pronounced Bee-ahn-ka but it's just like Bean-kah LOL! If you follow that! I really like Bee-ahn-ka too!
She was being so cute, but I think she got tired right before I got the camera out.
She's never too tired for kisses..yes that's on the lips blegh! She sneak attacks to get to your mouth...little stinker.
I had to give kisses to retaliate!
She always wins!
We're a kissy family :)
In other news I got a 39 out of 40 on my Biology test!! YAY! That's what I get for studying I guess right?!? HA!
I ran my fastest 5k ever yesterday at 40:23! I felt so good! I actually am feeling like my weight is up though, but I'm purposely not going to weigh myself tomorrow (weigh in days are fridays) because I don't want to feel down right when I'm getting into a rhythm with exercise and semi healthy eating. I know myself, and if I see a "bad" number I'm going off the deep end and it's name is deep fried butter.
I had a photo shoot with Beanka before work today! True story: My bro-in-law thought Beanka was pronounced Bee-ahn-ka but it's just like Bean-kah LOL! If you follow that! I really like Bee-ahn-ka too!
She was being so cute, but I think she got tired right before I got the camera out.
She's never too tired for kisses..yes that's on the lips blegh! She sneak attacks to get to your mouth...little stinker.
I had to give kisses to retaliate!
She always wins!
We're a kissy family :)
In other news I got a 39 out of 40 on my Biology test!! YAY! That's what I get for studying I guess right?!? HA!
I ran my fastest 5k ever yesterday at 40:23! I felt so good! I actually am feeling like my weight is up though, but I'm purposely not going to weigh myself tomorrow (weigh in days are fridays) because I don't want to feel down right when I'm getting into a rhythm with exercise and semi healthy eating. I know myself, and if I see a "bad" number I'm going off the deep end and it's name is deep fried butter.
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Tomorrow I'm going running, doing laundry, switching seasons in my closet, and then I have to turn in my uniforms! Eek!
Tomorrow is also the start of my...
Tomorrow is also the start of my...
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Love you guys, thank you for hanging in with me during this last hectic week! It should be smoother sailing from here on out!
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Crazy Busy!!
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