Digging My Way Out

Today was one of my longer days back to school from 10-5. I feel like I got a lot accomplished including a one on one visit with my physiology professor, a visit with academics counseling, and a great session with the school therapist. I feel a lot better after getting some of my feelings out, and letting them breathe/ be validated. After school, I came home to a house full of GROCERIES! I was beyond happy that Marc went shopping. This was a long time coming folks. Dinner was a little bit too big for my stomach LOL! I ended up saving the hummus for tomorrow and put the pretzels on my salad. Very good stuff. Chili was a gift from my mother in law, and it was so good!

For dessert, I saw we had quite a bit of apples in the house so I made some honey cinnamon apples in the toaster oven. Now my house smells FABULOUS!

Alrighty, I've got to finish studying for my organic chemistry exam tomorrow on protein structures. Goodnight!

He Is

Marc is my everything, my strength, my companion, my reason.

 

I'm trying to swim but I'm drowning y'all.

Down in the Dumps

Do you ever have those nights where nothing immediately has gone wrong, but you're overwhelming sad anyway? I'm feeling pretty down in the dumps tonight. I hate feeling like this, but it kind of seems that everywhere my mind turns, it's a negative feeling. Whether it be sadness, despair at the unknown, fear, guilt, jealousy, or straight up rage, I can't seem to get past it. It seems like EVERY aspect of my life is filled with negativity at the moment, I just need to try and get past it I guess. There is no way through it, except to just go through it.

So I'm going to watch some youtube videos and try to forget about it.

Here are a couple that Marc would play me over and over again when I was sick. Let me know if you enjoyed them!
a more 'serious' one... Plus my personal favorite technical song of all time, Kimbra's got it going on. She's got such an eye for tone, build up, and layering. I wish I would have known about this song when I was in music appreciation class! Okay, I've successfully taken myself out of my scumlife and into youtube land. I'm off to drown my pitiful sorrows.

My Appendix!

Well I'm sure you've wondered where the hell I went to again.

Did you think I was lost in a jungle?

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Did you think I was kidnapped?

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Did you think I had an Appendicitis and had to have emergency surgery?

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Well if you picked option number three, you'd be right.

I was sick for a whole week before they realized what was wrong with me. I was diagnosed with a UTI, which was not "true". In reality I was suffering from a real weird case of Appendicitis that lasted a week without rupturing. This just happened to be in the same week I had a head on car accident that totaled my vehicle, and it also happened the week before Midterms. The surgeon said today it would be a one in one trillion chance that this was caused by the accident, so I'm screwed. Plus I have NO health insurance, so I'm QUADRUPLE screwed.

Can anyone give me some good luck cause I could use some!

I guess the silver lining of the whole event is that...

1) I'm not dead
2) My professors are being very understanding and letting me do makeup work
3) My appendix didn't burst and create chaos in my body
4) I lost 7 pounds and haven't gained it back yet even though I only want to eat chocolate pudding cups and chocolate milk.

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So my dear friends, count your blessings! I've missed you!